Valerie's first encounter with me

Valerie will be celebrating her 1 year old birthday this coming Sunday (1st April), I paid Beng and Elly (and of course her!) a visit this morning :D

She looked upon me curiously on our first encounter, and it just took her 3 minutes to burst out crying and crying... (and crying and crying)

Finally she got quiet, and wasn't so afraid of me after about 10 minutes :D And she began playing with me!~~~~~~

I told Beng and Elly that this is the first time a child wasn't afraid of me, as PY's nieces all cried for the long hour everytime I visit her family -_-

Nevertheless, she still wouldln't let me carry her, nor will she let me shoot a photo with her. Beng shot this photo for us, but with the bait of a biscuit.. she wasn't paying any attention to me, instead she immediately crept out of my grasp after finishing the biscuit T__T

Tired of feeling tired

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh... I'm tired of feeling tired everytime everywhere... No matter how difficult it is, I will, from this point of time onwards, force myself out of this shitty feeling and concentrate on whatever I am trying to do!

Be it slow or unproductive, I just got to force my biological clock back to normal, and then I will have a life~

一阙诱惑的诗

声音呈块状跌宕　于廻廊间莫名的黑比较
窗外斑驳的天　是墨绿色的苍白

呼吸与风搅和　一滴泪沾湿了头发
伫立无垠穹苍之上的之上
用神的角度俯瞰人间

嘴角仰起　一抹痛苦的轻蔑的笑
弯出再残忍不过的弧线
连接天地　成为彩虹

七色眩目又是炫目　任人窒息而不理会
是诱惑亦是迷惑　是比天上星辰更美丽的眼
是比银河涔涔更夺人声息的头发
是比人间界更妖娆的花更让人意乱情迷的唇

是万千男人甘心沦为奴隶而努力地
搏得天使的一笑
如甘霖般沁人　如春雷般醒神
即便是用上轮换五千回的一生也愿意的
一次嫣然

我的明天在哪里

完全没有心思工作　手上的工作不是不有趣
而是脑中始终有把声音在质疑　－－
这真的是你想要的工作吗？


呵　很是矛盾


我最喜欢的编程　如今变得像个恶梦
不知是醒还是醉　就是
陌生了

对于编程　始终最原始的快乐就是来自于
完成程式时候的快感
若眼前有个问题　所有人都解决不了
惟独你出马　才终于把问题给解决的时候

那种快感　值得一再回味

然而　也是我自己说的
不能一辈子都做编程　虽然那不是＂没出息＂
但永远做编程却代表了永远上不了位

于是我开始学习人事　学习一些非技术性的工作
现在老板也很愿意让我接手一些非技术性的工作
可是　问题就来了

我压根儿对这些琐碎的事情没有兴趣啊
是真的没有兴趣　和客户开会
安装SERVER　解答客户的疑问

我认定　这些工作不会是我想要的
我一直以为　所谓的离开技术领域
就是往上延伸至包含设计系统等的工作
可是啊　现实往往就是和我想的不一样

于是思想开始酝酿逃避的心理
脑袋几乎把所有的力量与优先权都给了编程　－－
一种当作爱好来经营的副业

如今脑袋里有至少三个作业要进行
却没有时间开始任何一个
因为新的工作马上就要开始了
又是一程没有白天黑夜的折磨

我的明天在哪里？
或许我应该先理清楚
我要的明天到底该是怎样的

曾几何时　一个认定未来属于自己开创的青年
现在竟然变成一个认命且愿意随波逐流的男人

或许应该叛变一下　不要用什么理由
好玩就好

我的明天　快要来临　虽然．．．
我还不知道那会是什么

保佑我

My new hair color :D

I didn't go back Mirror Talk (@Holiday Plaza, JB) to do my hair this time, we opted for another shopping complex, as Holiday Plaza's condition was going from bad to worse recently... The toilets were constantly dirty, the place full of ah bengs smoking, and the car park isn't cheap at all...

So, we decided to give e-vogue @ Plaza Pelangi a try, PY went there to have her hair permmed once, it was like 3 years ago, and the guy who did her hair was gone. Nevertheless, we got two nice guys to have our hair done.

PY chose a very metallic red hair... not like Suki's of course, hers too red liao, its more like red mix with brown la..

And I went for the so-called-two-tone-but-nothing-special new technique learnt by the boss, I thought my last green hair from Mirror Talk 6 months ago already applied that technique? ~___~

当时间停格在午夜

闷热的夜　没有一点征兆
这一个晚上　会很漫长

＂总要发生这样的事，我们才会停下脚步享受人生＂

因为时间总是不够　因为行程总是排的满满
因为总是疲累得不想再动身体的任何一个部位
因为．．．总是有用不完的借口

这一天　整座城市黑漆漆的一片
没有灯火的四周　让人想逃
于是　在离午夜还有九十分钟前
决定叛离


这里的景色普通而已
却让人觉得宁静舒服

透过落地窗外
看到的是无车的街与孤独的灯
隔绝了人类所有的贪
这恶名昭彰的街　从这个角度俯瞰
竟有几分可爱的美


室内　环境是喧闹却又带点气质的
夜晚本就应该如此脱离常规

于是疲惫的身躯完全地沉入了
软暖的沙发

思绪飘啊飘地　从你和我
到他和他们　再到我们大家

是非黑白曲直全都一清二楚　我脑竟能读我心
是心上的平静吧　所以看什么都美

咖啡与蛋糕都精致得让人不忍享用
味道是如何地　反而不是那么重要了

毕竟　这样一个环境
贩卖的是情调与气氛

于是
在一个多小时的悠闲空间里

音乐从Kenny G. 的萨克斯风到森山直太郎的清亮
再到首首韩剧婉约动人的旋律

一本又一本的杂志　读的不知道是内容还是精神
总觉得心灵又饱满了许多

离开前　匆匆地瞥了一眼
这城市　难得还有如此天地

Phew... back finally

Had went back to JB last weekend, and the whole of today had been dedicated to customer site's visits :D Which means 3 days without blogging... arghhh how can this happen?

Must find a way to blog through mobile liao :D

Kekekeke, anyway, had a haircut and dyed my hair -- again! This time gone for brown and greenish kind of two-tone hair -_- no chance to take a photo of myself, because no time >_<

Also, found out that it will be nice to spend a night's time at a cafe and just drinking coffee, reading books with the person you loved.. hahaha.

Saturday night, as we were heading home, we found out that the whole residential area at our place had no power supply, so we decided to go and have supper, but didn't want all those kopi-tiams :D In the end, we went to a cafe instead :D

The experience was well-worthed, will blog them in a separate entry~~


Now ~_~ off to take a bath and rest a while before going to bed, its been a hectic three days thus far >_<

我们的孩子会长什么样子?

昨天和PY聊到我们的孩子会长什么样...
就上网找来了这个软件来试看看... Morpheus Photo Mixer


结论是,我们还是不要生小孩好了 -_-|||
为什么我们的孩子长得那么恐怖啊...哈哈哈哈


有点像人妖是吗?
哈哈...我是那样觉得啦:D

陈升 － 这些人．那些人

这些人．那些人．
陈升

这张专辑我听了两遍．

第一遍，我完全不能接受也没有办法听进任何一首歌．或许是音乐的太不主流；或者是下意识里不喜欢陈升庸懒又不清晰的咬字；又或许是莫名其妙的对那仿如八十年代酒廊＂拿卡西＂的编曲产生了排斥感．．．

我把这些都归咎于用不适合播放音乐的平台的关系．所以，第二遍，我选择用电脑并戴上耳机．

终究是另一种世界．这才是真正的陈升．

陈升的歌，是一种一对一的交流．只有戴上耳机后将自己与世界隔离，静悄悄地潜入陈升幽幽的吟唱．不需要看着歌词，就能体会到像诗一样的意境，是一种很饱满又复杂的体会　－－　很陈升．

如果专辑似酒，那＜这些人．那些人＞一定是上好的陈年佳酿，值得一听再听，一再回味．


专辑里头附有陈升的亲笔手扎，价值不可估计．很喜欢歌手为自己的专辑或心情做注解．虽然要一边听歌一边读懂他的笔迹有一定的难度，但很是值得．

摄影是陈升的嗜好，在＜思念人之屋＞专辑（还是＜五十米深蓝＞？不记得了）就已经拜见过他的风格．　这一次，回归中年男人心态上的平静，作品在静谧中多了一股生命力．

这样的姿态，我们称为豁达，是因为看透生命的无常吗？右手不能写字，就学习左手．东西记得不够多不够久，那也不要紧．不能弹吉他？就换手弹．

因为坦然，所以可爱．我是那么觉得的．



阿木给分：　＊＊（第一次听）　＊＊＊＊／（４　１／２，　第二次听）

My VisualDNA

Got this test from Suki, wasn't that bad at all :D

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

正版与改版

在suki的部落格上读到这么一篇关于改版与正版的文章,
因为不能连接过去(她是私人部落格),所以就截录一段来分享.

虽然自己周围有好多爱听歌的朋友，
但是，支持正版的却是少之又少。
是无奈的…　是愤怒的…　是“焖”的～！
今年立下了“宏愿”：不下载音乐~　
但是却被取笑为“愚蠢”、“无聊”～　

＊叹气＊

会在这里碎碎念的原因是因为自己是燕姿迷～
非常期待也非常开心她明天发片了，
但却“即期待又怕受伤害”，因为最近很流行改版这玩意儿！
若明天买了，然后公司又加MV又加DVD的改版，我不是很LUGI！？
虽然我舍得不下载花钱买正版，但是我也不是笨的嘛！
正当我在愁着买或不买时，我在网上看到了一整张专辑已经能下载了！
天啊～　不是明天才发吗？？？？？
为什么盗版哪～～～～么猖狂！！！


啊,其实啊.

当初suki许下这个宏愿的时候,我和她是一国的.
算算到现在为止,买了五月天,S.H.E,陈升,曹格和飞轮海(我女友的:D),
总算没有违背当初的愿景.

可我们难得"上岸"了,等着我们面对的,
其实并不是一个正常的消费人所希望看到的 -- 一波又一波的改版

改版,说得好听一点,不就是要"超值回馈歌迷的热情"嘛.
说得难听一点,就是要榨干歌迷的钱包.

原本就已经萎缩的唱片市场,盗版+非法下载反而成了主流.
剩下的一点坚持正版的歌迷要怎办?
唱片公司为了确保赚多些钱,就搞来了改版.

所以,某某歌手卖出20万张唱片,说穿了还不是因为改版了那么多次?
我实在不清楚,这样的风气,是不是导致越来越多人改变坚持,
选择"先下载,等出到最终改版的时候才买"呢?

那最终改版又是什么时候?


我始终认为,改版或许将是压死整个唱片界的最后一根稻草.
坚持做好音乐,自然就会有人支持了.

疲惫

夜里　作思考状
倦极累极的脑袋卖力运作
却无奈原地自转

钻入了牛角尖　就休想全身而退


纵然眼下发生的一切是如此清晰
脑中就是有把固执且坚决的声音
吞没了理性残余的胆怯


于是我变得勇敢　更勇敢地去逃避
理直气壮竟然变得如此简单
不就是　开口
然后都是　很烦　很烦　很烦

一个又一个的把人们都打发走
牛角尖里原本就容不下多一个人
尤其是现在
身与心在挑战疲惫的极限的当儿

我只想一个人

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
Author: J.K.Rowling

Another masterpiece, I must say.

I finished reading this release in 2 nights' time, not because its 200 pages lesser than its predecessor, but in fact, its far more exciting and intriguing than it.

A few things fulfilled my wish on this book, one, which is most remarkable, was that Harry finally got over with Cho, which is a big relief to me.
[Spoiler ahead]

The next thing, which is much to my delight, Harry finally got together with Ginny Weasley (Ron's youngest sister). I've always had this impression picturing Ginny as Bonnie Wright, whom acted almost anonymously as Ginny in the previous 4 movies.

In my opinion, Ginny suits far more better than Cho, to Harry.

Next, I seriously thinks that Snape DID NOT kill Dumbledore, in fact, I hoped that whatever reason Dumbledore had total faith in Snape, he and Snape were merely putting an act, so that Voldermort actually had full trust in Snape when he returned.

Otherwise, I hoped that Dumbledore's sacrifice was a calculated one and that he acknowledged his death would resulted in Snape being able to assisinate/assault/kill Voldemort in the nearest possible circumstances.

[Spoiler ended]



In the end, who the hell is the "Half-Blood Prince" is not important anymore (though you may find it interesting). I can't wait for the seventh book to be out :D

Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix

Harry Potter And The Order Of The Phoenix
by J.K. Rowling


It took me more than a year to complete this book, not that is wasn't exciting. In fact, it is one of the most exciting story I have ever come across with.

Its only 960+ pages, really, about the same as the first three series of the books being combined.

"The Order Of The Phoenix" is definitely filled with sad, anxiety and lots of anger. And you will find it unspuprisingly difficult to complete the first half of the book, as Harry seems to burst out on anything related around him.

However, as the plot deepens in the second half of the book, it becomes easier to read on and the ending of the book, although extremely saddening, is masterful.

I won't reveal much here, but I anticipate the upcoming movie with great expectations. "The Order Of The Phoenix" lets out a glimpse of Harry Potter aging into manhood. The book is no longer about Voldemort or Hogwarts, but now with love and ethics as well.

The nice part of the story is that J.K.Rowling has made it consistent in the whole plot and wordings used, that I felt no gap continuing from "The Goblet Of Fire" and moving on to "The Half-Blood Prince".

I bought "The Half-Blood Prince" immediately after I have finished reading this book. In the end, it was a sense of justice being done, truth being finally told, mixing together with a rush of guilt and feeling remorsed at the same time.

This book is good.

OMG ^o^

I didn't realize that as I have just been blogging naturally whenever something hits my mind. But I just found out that I have already surpassed the total blog entries in 2004 or 2005 :D

And its only March.

I am proud of myself :D

wahahahahahha

The 5 things that I learnt from the queue at SISTIC

5) It is more likely a human fault
While I was queuing up for the Mayday Concert tickets, the computer hung on a couple of occasions, what bemused me was that they claimed that the server was overloaded and thats why its so slow. But I do not agree -- that may convince some of the non-programmers, but based on what I've seen on the screen, the counter staffs, obviously new to the job, is not used to handling buyers with more than 10 tickets. They seem to blunder when making bulk payments.

4) A system design for such a big company, should at least, have some efficiency.
SISTIC is the biggest ticket selling organization in Singapore, but not the best. If what claimed by the personnel from the counter was right, they are all running on a single server through the Internet, which was never safe. And judging by the fact that the Mayday's concert can only be bought from IMM that day, there shouldn't be a sudden increase in traffic on the website. So, unless SISTIC's website had been like that every single day, I'm not convinced that a single counter at IMM SISTIC will cause the whole system to crash.

3) I can really endure long hours of standing without food and drinks
No toilet, no food for the whole day, no water for the whole day, I found myself, together with the others, simply magnificent!

2) The fans are all very cute
Including me, everyone in the queue used a Mayday title as their ring tone! That is very odd to find out, but as time goes on, we begin to hear more and more people's mobile phone ringing, and we all smiled when heard something familiar. PY's call to me is 最重要的小事 while the other calls to me are 天使 :D

1) Technology, when failed, should not bring inconvenience to life.
From a basic point of view, technology should bring convenience to life, I agree with that, in fact, that is what we programmers do all the time. I have been striving to learn new technologies and apply them to my systems... sometimes for fun, but I will be enormously proud of my work should it saved somebody's effort of spending more time on meaningless job.

Now, from a reverse point of view. Technology, in turn, should not cause much dependencies on human. That is, when a technology fails to deliver, human should still be able to get the job done manually, that is the ultimate design of a good working system.

How often do we see that people complaining jobs could not be done in the event of a software application failure? At my company, technology's everything. It seems to be the case at SISTIC as well.

Why isn't there an interim solution to move on and manually book the tickets, instead wanting the crowd to just stand there for numerous boring hours, and some even got to stand under the sun?

Moreover, this ticket selling session is only opened at a single location, which makes it even easier to manage, isn't it?

Now I'm going to change my direction a bit... I hope that in the future, whatever system I've did... and when its down, will not cause such significant inconveniences to the public. :D

我是不是老了

星期五拿了一天假去排队,
平常我最讨厌排队了,结果一个月竟然排了两次很恐怖的队!

月头的时候排了一个多小时买那个从来不会开对号码的多多,
那也就罢了,人称一年一次的千万多多嘛... 哈哈

这一次,是几年才来一次新加坡开演唱会的五月天!
:D 不能不支持是吗?

星期五在IMM的首卖会是独家的,
也就是说只有IMM的SISTIC柜台有卖他们的门票.
中午12点开始发售,我怕输了一点,
11点就到场排队了,结果没想到人龙已经排了三十几人.

其实三十几人不多,只是一想到这些都是专业的歌迷会成员,
心就凉了半截...

果然,等到一开始买票,第一个小姐就眉头也不皱一下的,
买了几十张票...
之后的每一个人,都少少买20-30张的!好恐怖T__T

最恐怖的事情忽然发生了,
SISTIC柜台有两个,一个是专门给五月天门票的,
另外一个则是其他门票的购买
(如果没有人的话,我们就可以去那里买五月天的门票)
这两个柜台排队的地方不一样,所以要买其他门票的人不用排我们那恐怖的队.

12:30 PM左右,人龙已经排到IMM外面了
(保安把排队的人分散到外面),
忽然我们前面在买票的人龙不动了.
1:00 PM,还是同一个小姐在买票,
而且看她的表情,不像是在斟酌考虑些什么.

过后,TECHNICIAN出现,SISTIC的负责人出现...
原来是电脑当机了T__T
只剩下那个卖其他门票的柜台开着,可是也有好几个人在买...
1:30 PM,终于动了两个人(去卖其他门票的柜台).
1:45 PM, 电脑终于重新启动.
2:00 PM, 卖其他门票的柜台电脑当机.
2:15 PM, 五月天门票柜台电脑又当机.
2:45 PM, 公众开始不满,五月天宣传人员赶紧下来安抚人心.

那宣传人员很漂亮:D
还解释等下的签唱会有哪些节目,会唱什么歌...

3:20 PM, 五月天门票柜台电脑复原.

到我的时候,是4:00 PM 左右,
结果,我前面的三十几个人竟然买了500多张票!
结果最前面的两区都给他们买掉了T__T
没办法,只能买第二区第一排的中间位子咯T__T 好恐怖.


结果啊,我没有吃早餐,没有喝到水,
没有上到厕所的情况下就莫名其妙的排了5个小时的队.

直到6点我要离开的时候,人龙还是很长.

我并没有参加签唱会,因为要买改版的CD.
可是在远远看过去的情况下,我看到了士杰!!!!~~~~
他和他的技师团在做调音的工作,哈哈哈哈...

Stoned Part 2 -__-

Had been busy like hell recently -_-

First it was Wednesday, where the guy whom we supposed to meet to perform the server hardening portion forgot about the appointment and made our trip to SAFTI a total waste.

Then, this morning he was supposed to meet me at 10 am, and he only reaches at 11 am, and started work 11:30 am..

A work he said would be completed within 30 minutes, but till lunch time (12:30) he still hadn't finished...

Ok fine, then he say he'll be back after lunch time, which will be by latest 1:30 pm, and he came back only at 2 pm.

Problems arise, and he only knows how to arrow -- "This is not my problem, this is application's problem, which is your problem."

Eh... I have not been able to startup the IIS because of your policy change, and thus it hasn't even reach my application portion, what MY problem?

You are in charge of server hardening, and you tell me the server couldn't startup because of an application problem?

KNN. With that snobbish look, really want to go complain him, but he's not from our user site, he's our own guy from the same company!

KNN2: Where on other occasions, where even our competitors would offer those without car a ride out of SAFTI, this guy just go off without letting me know, in the end, luckily it hadn't rain, otherwise i need to walk 20 minutes out to fetch a cab... I will cut him into pieces the next time I meet him!

Stoned

Moral of the story:

NEVER drink a coffee which was more condensed than Espresson.


The next moral of the story:

NEVER finish that coffee.


As a result, I've been shivering the whole morning -_-

Oh ya, why drink coffee? Because I've been too tired lately >_<

最靠近的天堂6

许伊婷裸身躺在床上　努力幻想着天堂
她不习惯没有薛鸣关的身体来取暖
那厚实的肩膀　有力却又温柔的环抱
她努力刻画着

却总是差那么一点

许伊婷坐起身　定定地望着镜子中的自己
她美丽的胴体在黄灯的照映下显得格外诱人
然而　形单影只的寂寞
此刻却弥漫了整个房间

纵使她是试着振作起来的

许伊婷在决定要勇敢面对努力振作的那一刻起
变精神抖擞的开始忙了起来
她将所有薛鸣关的物品整理并收进行李箱中
就好像当初她如何在每次旅行出发前为他打点一切一样
衣物　剔须刀　香水　内裤　袜子
等等等

许伊婷必须用上很大很大的勇气
那勇气有多大其实没人晓得
才能够阻止眼角的泪水再次决堤

终于　房子只剩下她的物品　和他们的物品
累得倦极的许伊婷在床上躺了下来

她仿佛还可以感受得到薛鸣关的温度
他用手指轻轻抚摸她的身体的酥麻
然后在她耳畔轻轻叫唤她名字的浪漫
都历历在目

许伊婷将衣服褪去　让自己赤裸裸的身躯接触每一寸空气
房间冷冷的空气让她起了一身的鸡皮疙瘩
她将身体蜷缩入了棉被
皮肤与棉被间轻微的摩擦让许伊婷感觉舒缓了许多
她感觉到自己的脑袋终于放慢了转动速度

她开始幻想薛鸣关也躺在被窝里



镜子前　许伊婷赫然想起
在书房中还放着薛鸣关的手提电脑

＂嗯，还有最后一样东西没收拾好来．＂
她起身　将睡袍穿上
缓步走向书房

明白

世界从来不是只有黑与白而已．
只是非常遗憾的，许多人觉得自己就是黑与白．
于是，很多原本处于灰色地带暧昧又诲涩的话题，
便被许多人对号入座与强加注解．

很多时候，我们以为我们懂．
甚至最对方还没有把话说完的时候，便企图打断对方并否定对方．
更甚者，若讲道理，道理亦不在自己这方，
就只会用更大的音量来赢得胜利．

可胜利是什么？

争执的开始是因为不了解，和以为自己太了解．
争执的升温是因为彼此的不愿认输．
争执的爆发点是在于从来不觉得自己会是错的．
争执的结果永远都是因为太在乎对错胜利失败而导致了无法挽回的伤害．

到最后我们在乎的是什么？
是对方吗？
还是自己的对错？

很多人会说＂我懂，我当然懂＂
你懂我要说什么吗？
你有等我说完吗？
是我有话要对你说，为什么我非得要听你说完你的话？

我不能说我的人生过得很成功，
可是起码我尝试尊重说话的人，
即使说话的人错漏百出前后矛盾抑或词不达意歪曲事实，
都尽量耐心听他说完．

而每每，总是在把话说完的那一刹那让他自己给领悟了自己的错误出在哪里．
若他仍无反应，他也会因为你肯听他把话说完而反过来让你把话说完．

沟通往往就是这样展开的．

可是偶尔还是会无名火起，
尤其是碰到那种．．．


我：　我有个问题问你．
他：　啊，就是那个ＸＸＸ问题是不？
我：　不是．．．
他：　那是那个ＹＹＹ问题吗？
我：　不是．．．
他：　那一定是ＺＺＺ问题了吧！
我：　不对．．．
他：　那你来找我做什么？（不耐烦）
我：　我是想问你关于ＡＡＡ的事情．．．那个．．．
他：　ＡＡＡ不是我负责的，你不会去找谁谁谁啊？
我：　这东西真的是你负责的．．
他：　我没空理你那么多啦．你去找谁谁谁．

最后啊，就是要找出他的老板来和他说，
其实那个ＡＡＡ里面的ＢＢＢ，他写错了一些东西，
导致问题多多．

没想到，最后他竟然还有胆和我说：
＂为什么你不早告诉我？＂


我是想心平气和的和你说啊，可谁叫你自以为是的认定了那么多东西？
到最后竟然认定我没和你说清楚？

曹格 -- 背叛

有那么一首歌　会超越所有其他歌
久久萦绕在脑海中　感觉一次比一次沉重
歌词你没能记起来　然后很意外于自己
竟然能够投入于如此模糊的一首歌中

后来我才发现　不是因为这首歌模糊
而是因为被唱的人感动

之前也有莫名其妙突然很喜欢一首歌
可那是因为歌词的细腻让我爱不释手
所以听两遍便会记得歌词跟着一起唱了

然而　曹格的＜背叛＞
比之＜沉默玩具＞有过之而无不及的深情与沉重

雨 不停落下来
花 怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人 欣赏悲哀
爱 只剩下无奈
我 一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块 就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何
Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
Say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快
心 有一句感慨
我 还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段 还在不在


被旋律深深吸引　才了解到好的旋律可以让歌词的感动度加倍
曹格的曲所营造的浪漫趋于极致
用英语来说　就是breathless

还差一点　就会为了这一首歌买他的专辑
只可惜试听了整张专辑　只有这一首歌好听而已
其他的　都不是我的那一杯茶..

超级明星脸

首先是这样的唐治平，看起来很帅很年轻是不是？
还有点谢霆峰的味道．嗯，看起来就是浪子型的．．．

再来这张就比较接近唐治平在［花样］里梅田的造型，
开始觉得这家伙似曾相识，很像我们认识的一个人．．．
可是那只是一种很模糊的感觉，
直到．．．

在［白色巨塔］里的陈宽造型才让我恍然大悟！！！！！！
加了两撇胡子后．．不就是他吗？？？？？？？

对了，就是ＳＵＮＮＹ～～～～～
没想到ＳＵＮＮＹ那么．．．
有明星气质的．．
唐治平不知道会不会难过，哈哈哈哈～



仔细看，是不是越看越像呢？:D

末日

征战一片荒芜　枯褐色的土地
壮烈的武士　明知不可能却依然自信满满

天与地之间　岂容得下一丝犹豫抑或脆弱？
伤口会败血溃烂　肉身终有不支倒地的一天
但那炽烈燃烧的灵魂啊　是亙古由来已久
生生不息的

他们是被天神唾弃的一群
因为逾越了不能亵渎的那条线
却依然义无反顾
是烂漫或天真　水蓝色的眼睛里仍然没有一点恐惧

今夜以后　他们的存在将永远的被磨灭

即使下场如此　姿态依旧是洒脱地义无反顾
传说于是展开

洪水是天神愤怒的一次惩戒
当一切归于混沌　当大地不再接收得到阳光
末　日　便　来　临

所有曾经存在的证明都无一幸免
沉入无尽深冷的海底
　
但精神不死
所以传说一直在流传着
数万年前被刻意抹掉的历史在蠢动着
世人给了它一个美丽且浪漫的名字

亚特兰提斯





（注：亚特兰提斯是所有古文明中最让我意乱情迷深深狂恋的一环
以上文章内容均勾勒出我所认识的亚特兰提斯，无从考证）

记忆衰退中

曾经我是个自诩能够过目不忘的狠角色 --
在求学时期我连数年前和谁谁谁在哪里吃过什么东西都会记得一清二楚.
考试时候,大部分时间是因为自己懒惰,所以没去读书.
可是只要一认真读起来,分数总会考得不错的.

然而,这一两年下来,发现我的记忆力衰退之严重程度,
简直只能用"恐怖"来形容.

这一秒还在做着的事情,下一秒竟然会忘得一干二净.

更甚者,自己说过的话,做过的事,只要稍微不留心,
两天过后就会对这些事情完全没有印象...

最近蛮常说的一句话:
"我有那么说过吗?"

看来我是要开始吃些补品来补补我的脑了,
最近头发也开始白了,以前半年才找到两三根,
现在不过两个月,已经有十多根了.

呵呵,不承认老也不行了呢.

所以,如果下次你遇到我,
除非你和我说我欠了你很多钱,
不然的话我大概都会相信我之前和你说了些什么...
而我自己又已经忘记了:D

大人有大量,不要那么在意啊.我也在努力着呢.

A new word learnt

Nostalgic

Have always come across this word but didn't take the effort to find out what it meant. And I finally got this chance to ask Suki what it meant -- She had a blog post about this feeling.

And I was-- Oh~ So it means 怀念过去.

Well, I still do not know if its a noun, a verb or an adjective.

But by watching the vids posted by Suki on the multiply account, the feelings just came flowing back. 记得当时年纪小 -- how on earth was it possible to do all these things during office hours?

We had stunts (I was the main lead wahahahah :D), we had photo taking sessions, we even played Uno during office hours...

A couple of years passed, and now at our current company, we do not dare/do not wish/do not even think of having such fun anymore...

Well, they're more like school-days buddies -- the type that you would mix around and laughed as if its nobody's business -- and still feel proud :D


Oh, so this is what we call "nostalgic", I'm on :D

从地震看人性

老实说,现在对于人性,感觉是蛮失望的.

印尼地震的死亡人数已经达到70人左右,
身处安全地带的我们,却仍乐得一副事不关己,等着看好戏的心态.

若是人民不居安思危,国家有天若真的发生天灾乃至人祸,
我倒想看看,这些人是不是还笑得出来.

地震发生后不到三个小时,看到朋友们的反应,
是一个比一个还心寒.

可以一辈子不用经历地震,那是何等的幸运?
因为地处安全地带,这些年下来,
是不是有越来越多人把自己身处的环境理所当然化了?

于是我们看到有人埋怨自己错过了那场地震,
有人笑说"还蛮好玩一下的"...
更甚者,有人还期待再震多一次.

这是多么要不得的一种心态!

印尼和新马之间隔了四百多公里,
在这里,我们能够感受到建筑物摇晃的晕眩,
那远在印尼的人们呢?

当我们这里的人们还在热烈讨论着下一波什么时候会来,
图个新鲜希望体会地震但又完全没有危险的时候,
印尼数以百计的房屋在崩塌,受伤的受伤,失去家园的失去家园...
然而,我们在做什么?

"不关我的事啊..."
"很新鲜啊..没体会过..."
"是蛮好玩一下的..."

很久没有发火了,有些事情是不能拿来开玩笑的,
新加坡政府花了那么大的努力来教导人们居安思危,
要人们严肃看待恐怖袭击等灾害,却换来如此讽刺的结果.

当真,人真枉为人也.
讽刺.

Tremor felt

It was 11:54 am, as usual, was msn-ing with a few ex-colleagues while doing my work, when our building suddenly felt a tremor...

At first I thought the building was about to collapse (thanks to many shows and documentaries showing possible shatters before a building collapses)... then CY msn-ed me: "Wah! We here felt the whole building shake!"...

Then only I realize, perhaps its an earthquake?

11:56 am, people began rushing out of the meeting rooms, those seated at their cubicles stood up and gathered together... according to our emergency practices, if the tremor persisted we would need to evacuate immediately.

11:58 am, there were discussions of a possible earthquake in Indonesia, people began exchanging SMSes with friends around Singapore. Suki at Tanjong Pagar didn't feel the tremor, but I deemed it due to the height of the building (she was at level 3, while CY and I were on level 6).

12:02 pm, people began going for lunch, they term it "Semi-evacuation" -_-, and threads and posts on the forum begin to emerge.

12:22 pm, I receive a call from PY telling me she felt the tremor at her office as well, at Level 6 too.

12:30 pm, I found the update from NEA. It was an earthquake on south Sumatra.

12:42 pm, I AM HUNGRY!!!!~~~~~

梦的湛蓝

又是梦　比之任何一场旧梦更来得清晰而没有逻辑的梦


＊　　　＊　　　＊


天微冷　空气微薄
云是剔透的　数朵白云呈旋涡状开展

气氛虽然静谧　却很诡异
每人一步一脚印的前进　抬头
目标始终近在咫尺　却恍若天涯

是山　我们是征服她的流浪者
走过葱绿的草地　往上眺望
竟看不到被雾藏起来的山头
是疲惫吧　是沮丧吧
我们决定在一处悬崖边过夜

夜里　在停车场处传来熟悉的引擎声
是我们老家的ＫＥＮＡＲＩ！
她怎么出现在这里了？
说真的　我很想她
毕竟她曾经陪伴我们无数个岁月
虽然老了旧了残了被拿去卖了
我心中仍然对她有种不舍

如今在这座山上的停车场
她静静地泊在那处　车灯魔幻似地闪着
我对她说：＂嘿，好久不见，我来拿东西了．＂
车门自动敞开　里面有两包衣服
是我母亲的．

我将车门关上　和她道别
转头回到别墅的房间
悬崖不见了　高山不见了
有的是漆黑得比黑还黑的一座湖

母亲做好晚餐　唤着我们兄弟姐妹吃饭去
忽地一声传告　要我们选出三个人去完成
完成什么？

声音说　登山的任务

母亲说山上有座城市
游乐场很好玩　她年轻的时候曾经去过
要我带着姐姐和弟弟前去

我们便开始收拾行囊
临行前一位多年未见的好友忽然出现
说是要和我们一同前行

我们于是开始规划路线
绕着山腰走　虽然耗时
却不辛苦
直接爬上去　只有６０００英尺的高度
却可能会要了我们的命

几经辛苦　车笛声从身后鸣起
原来是新开的列车服务
服务长和我们说这列车有上山的喔

于是我们便上车．．．


然后闹钟便响起．


＊　　　　　＊　　　　　＊

这梦做得很意犹未尽　如果可能
真希望今天晚上又可以继续我们未完成的冒险

哦　我们是谁？
其实我也不是很清楚
偶尔是你　偶尔是你们
偶尔又谁都不是

部落格的开始

所谓部落格,从一开始,对我来说就是一种"日记".
日记,记载日常生活所发生的事 --
曾几何时,我也有过写日记的习惯,
那是在读书时候的事了.

会开始写部落格,其实也没有什么伟大的理由,
纯粹是那时候看到同事开始在Blogger上登记户口,
就自己也登记一个来玩玩而已.

没想到一写,就写了两年多.
间中虽然有些时候"偷懒"了一下,
但今年切切实实的许下了"要勤劳写最少100篇部落"的愿望,
眼看三月刚到就快要完成一半了,
心中难免会觉得当初是不是太低估自己了:D

虽然这种低估有些暗爽的成分:D

多多梦碎

>_<

早也该知道是这种结局,每一年都要心痛一次~~~~
算了,不中多多也就表示了我们都是凡人而已.
哈哈,努力赚钱或许是个比较正当的途径.

算命的都说我和PY的命是劳碌命,
注定没有偏财横财运,所以过年逢赌必输,马票逢买必赔.
只有那一次...第一次在BUKIT TIMAH买了4D,
中过一千大元,那时候是无心插柳,
就PY刚好梦到这组号码,叫我去买,
我没放在心上,过了两个星期才想起,
顺便在BUKIT TIMAH吃午餐的时候,
顺口叫我同事ERIC LIM买的...
就顺便开出二奖了,哈哈哈哈...

结果,从那次以后就再没有中过了. :D

最靠近的天堂5

回到家里,所有布置摆设都和之前一样,
偌大的客厅却格外显得冷清.
原来,少了薛鸣关的空气是那么寂寞的.

许伊婷走向房间,她根本没有勇气抬头看看走廊上她和他的结婚合照--
她很怕,哪怕是最轻微的一点触碰,
那已一早碎裂一地的心,会更接近地狱一步.

在房间里,许伊婷站在镜子前,她几乎没能认识自己.
她是美丽的,这一点薛鸣关曾经不止一次说过.
可这一刻的她,满头蓬松的头发,
长久下来睡眠不足所造成的黑眼圈和刚刚才哭过的双眼...

这是许伊婷吗?她重复问着自己.




终于,她选择面对.
人已经走了,但回忆留了下来,
薛鸣关八年来的陪伴将是她活下去一辈子的动力.
而且,她答应过他,会好好照顾自己.

There ARE programmers that CAN'T program

Coding Horror has been one of my favourite blogs recently.

Jeff Atwood's recent post on the issue of "Why Can't Programmers.. Program?" has caused a buzz around us.

In the article, Jeff brought up a problem while interviewing candidates for the post of a software engineer or programmer -- MOST OF THEM CAN'T EVEN PROGRAM!

They have this test called FizzBuzz, in which is as simple as (quoted from here, which is another good post):

Write a program that prints the numbers from 1 to 100. But for multiples of three print "Fizz" instead of the number and for the multiples of five print "Buzz". For numbers which are multiples of both three and five print "FizzBuzz".


If you are a programmer, you might come out with a solution within 2 minutes. That's normal (or average). Yet, there are many who can't do it.

A few years back when I interviewed for the job at SingTel, the guy who interviewed me (Sunny) instructed me to construct an application too. I did it from scratch, and was offered the job.

During the two years at SingTel, I have helped Sunny and his colleagues to setup the testing environment for interviewees that were thrown the same questions, and I was really astonished: Many of them went on to the Internet for solutions, some interviewees even brought their own application, which was written at home (and took them obviously long hours becuase its very sophisticated and... Internet-found)...

There were candidates who struggled for 1 hour and yet nothing came out; there were candidates who spent 5 minutes and gave up...

It is really a shame, we graduated in Computing majors, and didn't know how to program.


Back at NCS, my ex-boss (he has now moved on to another company) didn't know much programming, and thus I wasn't asked to construct an application this time.

I have a colleague from India that has a Masters' Degree in Computing, he came in a few weeks earlier than me and was sacked for his incompetence in programming, this is what happened:

We had a project that was modularized into several components, and to help us get familiarize with the programming practices employed in the company, we were assigned to implement a module that is totally independent from the main system.

I was assigned to implement a Custom Windows Control and managed to complete it within 2 days using C# (I hooked up to C# after this, it is much better than VB.Net). But that ex-colleague of mine took 2 weeks before giving up and my team leader got to complete that module for him.

Later, he was assigned to implement the installer for our application. I was the one who studied the proper procedures to implement a deployment project, and handed the details over to him. Yet, he took another 2 weeks to come out with an installer that couldn't install.

My team leader got so furious he sacked him.

A lesson learnt: Always interview a programmer by asking him to construct an application first.

为什么

人类很多时候都爱钻牛角尖
钻得越深便越不能自拔　直到遍体鳞伤　血流不止
方回过神来　－－　原来伤的不是自己
而是别人

很多事情自己看不透　看在别人眼里
便是脑袋少了个筋似地死抱着不放一堆有的没有的回忆理论观念
事实上只是　一直执意追寻个所以然来

于是乎　人们开始问起＂为什么＂

一个只有三个字的问题　可以多烦人　可想而知
原是美丽的大好景色　原是甜蜜的两情相悦
越是奔腾得无休止　跌得越是支离破碎

你可以在开始的时候问＂为什么＂
也可以在过程之中问＂为什么＂

你更可以在结束的时候问＂为什么＂

为什么？

其实真正在乎答案的人又有几个
知道了　不过就这样了
人都有头脑　总不可能自己想不到吧
说穿了　还不是到了那个时候那个点
已经再没有什么话好说了吧

所以　想用＂为什么＂来搪塞
嗯　还蛮可怜的