随便写写（１）

黑幕渐垂　路过车辆越夜越少
空气里湿度颇高　却闷热异常

这样的夜　造就了什么样的情绪
可想而知

躺坐在沙发上　混浊的思绪飞乱却不得片刻宁静
总是在即将濒临崩溃边缘的时候又横生理智
痛苦又自虐地在同一个框架里沉溺　好不享受

我想我是有病的　因为我喜欢痛苦



让痛苦蔓延　从头到手再到脚　无能又无力地抵抗
立志在消弥　不再清醒　却也不再彷徨

天与地两极　复合出多少悲哀
此刻终于明白　是空　也是满



阿牙木

精英与边缘人

在杂志访问上读到陈子谦的访问　老实说
觉得他就和我想象中的愤怒青年一样：
有话就说　不被新加坡大众所接受
有很多不满　却没有人（愿意）倾听

边缘人　他是如此被归类的
正如他的电影一样　深沉　安静　甚至孤独

有多少新加坡人识得陈子谦这一号人物？
或许　我比他本人更在乎这个问题

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某天早上　打开电视　播放的是＂４：３０＂的预告
随后有他的电视访问

惊为天人

饱满的声线吐出的不是愤怒
没有不满　眼神笃定　诉诸于电影的是热情
与许多被标签为精英的新加坡人所没有的
对国家的归属感　恨铁不成钢的无奈　以及真诚不做作的
对自己家园一种客观抽离所以看了更让人动容的关怀

他自称读过的书没超过十本　最近才开始看村上春树的书
可他的中文说得却比更多精英的洋腔洋调好太多了


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汗颜　先是我周围出现越来越多不知道说写中文的同事／朋友
有者甚至觉得自己不会说写中文是光荣的　
因为这说明了自己更接近西方文化

有人忙着学日文　却连基本的汉字都不认识几个
有人忙着讨论好莱坞电影　却连中文电影都不屑一顾

这里的教育制度出了什么问题？

某个晚上　在德士上　听一位大叔发表了他自己的伟见达２０分钟之久
他自豪于自己女儿由他一手带大　结果考上精英班
他鄙视自己胞亲的儿子　因为他读ＩＴＥ　还说这种人等于废物
说时　脸泛油光　神采飞扬

他又说　自己从来不让女儿和她的同学出门玩
因为＂班上有坏同学　会带坏她　所以我都要她放学了立刻回家读书＂
我反问他　不怕自己女儿自闭　以后交不到朋友吗？

他不以为然的回了一句　＂长大了去到ＩＴＥ读书认识再多朋友都没有用＂

下车前　他和我说了他还要赶着去接女儿
一个星期三次的补习　是他自己的话　他受得了吗？


做个精英　有这么了不起吗？



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我不是这种教育制度下长大的　所以我不是精英
可我目睹了太多的所谓精英其实只是虚有其表的温室里的小花
一旦离开学校与政府的保护投入现实生活和工作环境里
就一蹶不振甚至始终不曾清醒的例子

认识一个人　从ＪＣ到大学　都是一帆风顺的
家里很有钱　说得出口的话包括
＂怎么不去日本旅行？很便宜而已啊＂
＂我不会读中文，可是我的日文说得很好．＂

一旦面对工作压力　成天只懂发泄　没有建设　只有破坏
到最后　苦了只是我们这些在一旁的人而已吧？


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有点怀念那个年代
曾经可以和邻居聊天也不怕被人说闲话
被父母打骂是因为我们做错事　不是因为我们考不好试
每次考个零分回家　爸爸要打我的时候
我奶奶总会跳出来笑我爸：你小时候比阿添更常拿鸭蛋回来　你还打他？

嘿

我很感激我爸和我妈教我怎么做人
教我什么是应该做的　什么是应该觉得自豪的
什么是　身为一个华人　应该要懂得承袭的

让我在这样一个繁华的都市里几乎丧失自我的当下
至少保持清醒

哦　还有我亲爱的朋友们
你们一定知道你们是谁　＝）



阿牙木

Bad day

Been blasting "Bad Day" by Daniel Powter whole morning T__T *sobs*

Just moved to a new place with PY at Yishun's Chong Pang area, nice and cosy little unit, one room only.. everything looks so nice until this morning.

As usual, we woke up 7 am to wash up and prepare breakfast, 8 am, as we step out of our place we noticed something different:

WHERE THE HELL ARE OUR SHOES????

:(

obviously it was stolen, 2 pairs of Adidas sports shoes and 1 pair of Pierre Cardin's leather shoe -__- grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

So I went to the morning marketplace to search for a new pair of shoes, but none of them is opened! *Faints*

Thus I need to withstood weird glares by other people throughout my journey to work: A weird old guy wearing formal attire and sandals on leg! T__T

PY's no better, without her sports shoes she can only wear a pair of leisure sandals to work, arghhhhh :(


Lesson learnt: Never leave your shoes outside your place, put them inside... hahaha, made a survey on this... some of my singaporeans colleagues and friends told me to keep the shoes inside, as it was never safe to leave the shoes outside... but there are also some who said they have been leaving their shoes outside all these years without problem T__T arghhh, anyway now surely i will leave my shoes in the house liao :D


Last time I stayed at Clementi, left all our shoes outside for 6 months, nothing happened also, then after moved to CCK, as its a condo unit, no problem also T__T sigh...

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, i can change new shoes... should be happy also la :D

New hair color~~~~

Woooohoooooo, went back to JB this weekend to have our hair colored... we went to this shop called "Mirror Talk", as PY's used to get her hair styled by this lady called Stella, who once worked at a hair studio called "Cutting Design" and then later started up her own business :D

The services were superb (backed by CY as well, we introduced her and her bf to stella too! :D) if you want to have cheap hair cut and styling, go find "Mirror Talk" at Holiday Plaza's 3rd floor!


:D

We chose to color the same greenish series :D PY opted out of highlighting her hair as she thought it wasn't natural and is too loud, but I went on for the highlighting...

the price is quite cheap if compared to SG... new haircut, coloring and highlight + a hair treatment only RM 160! :D 30% cheaper than "Cutting Design"'s :D below are the results, wahaha, we liked it very much!

A day full of weird encounters -__-

Last Saturday PY and I went back to JB to catch Da Vinci Code... and the weird things just began to happen fast and furious, wahahahaha


First, we went to Lot 1 (we stay at CCK) for lunch, as PY went to toilet first, I found a place and placed our luggage on an empty seat.

As when I turned around and proceeded to the Mee Suah counter to place an order, I saw a young, pretty, lovely, adorable lady waving happily at me... So I was thinking, who the hell is this girl? Am I day-dreaming or what? -__- So I bo-chup-ed her, just smiled at her and go on to make my order liao...

Then as I was waiting for my food, suki SMS-ed me and asked if I'm in SG, then something struck me, could that girl be Leticia? (She's suki's good friend ma), and then after that suki replied me and asked if I was in Lot 1, then I'm quite sure she's leticia liao!


But OMG, how come leticia turn till like that, totally different from my impression liao... she's not cute anymore, but thats a good thing, as she's prettier and (a lot more) sexier and more matured-looking (ok ok, i'm a color wolf)!


To leticia: if you're reading this, sorry ah, an old uncle like me dun dare to greet any strangers as I scared other ppl will think (actually i am) a color wolf >_<




Then later went back to JB, PY and I wanted to watch the movie at City Square's Cathay Cinema, as the audience there are more well-mannered than other cinemas in JB, but we couldn't find an appropriate timeslot... so went to Tebrau Jusco lor... bought the tickets at 8.15 pm... then began shopping (its Malaysia's Mega Sale... although we did shopping on friday night when GSS began :D)... there's this 残酷一叮 audition for malaysia's version... alot of ppl, as PY and I were watching, suddenly somebody pulled my shirt, and I turned and saw CY~

CY was with her BF, they went shopping there all whe way from their place at Century Garden (that is about 40 minutes drive... wahahahahaha)

After that, the movie was O K only lah... Personally Tom Hanks is one of my favourite actor, but never in any way he is suitable to act as Robert Langdon T__T to me, you can get Collin Farell, Jude Law or even Johnny Depp to act, but why him?

Then Audrey Tatou was SOOOOOOOOO beautiful, at least it gave me some fond memories to recall :D

hmmmm, one thing I can't simply 投入 is because of the characters perhaps? The bishop is starred by the bad guy from Spiderman 2... PY and I can't stop linking them together... then what is Gandalf in LOTR acting as Leigh Teabing? T__T I spent the whole show pondering who this Teabing guy resemble, only after reminded by PY... arghhhhh

I seriously suspect that the old man that negotiated with the bishop is Bilbao of LOTR... they looked too alike liao -.-


All in all, Ron Howard didn't catch the essence of Da Vinci Code, in the first place, why cut away the most interesting part where Robert Langdon solved the cryptexES? why cut to one...

the history of the SangReal is nice to watch, very visual, but where is da Vinci when the show is all about da vinci code?

Why change the story till the ending so weird T__T sob sob There were only two parts that moved us... one is where Silas tortured himself, that was very painful... and the others where robert langdon knelt at De Jouvre...


Sigh, maybe this will be a better movie if not for a couple sitting beside us... PY was so pissed that she exchanged seat with me midway through the show... this couple.. the guy is a damn quiet guy, but his partner... obviously didn't read the book before, began commenting from the very first screen onwards...

"啊?为什么他要打自己?"
"啊?为什么他们变成通缉犯?"
"兄弟会是什么来的?真的有的吗?"
"男人的阴谋是什么来的?"
"啊,那个人是白子...做么全身那样白的?"
"啊...是真的吗?"
"哇,历史上真的有抹大拉的玛丽亚吗?"
"那个画真的有这些问题吗?"
"为什么提宾要毒死黑密?"
"啊?原来最后答案就是苹果而已?那么简单做么不要一开始就试呢?"
"那个地下室是不是最后的石棺所在地?"
"为什么他要跪在金字塔旁边?"

then as we moved out of the cinema, she continue commenting...
"不知道是不是真的咧,讲到好像真的一样. 有机会我们要去一下那些地方...
那些地方都在哪里?美国吗?"

i buang-ed T__T


ironically, the guy beside her just stood there and kept quiet, and i seriously suspect that throughout the show, its only she talking... the guy didn't utter a single word T__T