卡到阴 T__T

had this converation with suki, keke
red is me, blue is her

just came back -__-
tell u sth
oooooooo yes yes..
tell tell
had a horrendous experience last night while sleeping T__T
wahseh.. wad happened
had a nightmare mah?
or hav u been kicked down your bed by your gal.. hahaa
while i was half asleep, suddenly felt whole body kena pinned, numbed my hand and leg cannot move, throat become hot and dry T__T
:-O
yeeeeeeeeeeee
scary!
then i was thinking, suan le la, if really got ghost want to ya1 me, then let it ya1, too tired to struggle, so i continue with my sleep lor
taiwan ppl always say thats 卡到阴!
haha and then and then..
then that time the surrounding was too quiet liao, but suddenly my ears can hear a very strange noise, its a wind blow de sound, very loud, then got a guy talking to me in a language i can't understand T__T
walau... stil got guy tok to u~
i wanted to shout, but can't leh, damn scary, until i think, slowly slowly move my lips, suddenly everything turned quiet, then only i can open my eyes T__T
then my whole body aching, heart pounding very fast some more
zaolang
errhmm
then then..
then i continue sleeping la, but whole night can't calm down le, hahaha
was it your dreams or really happened
because too tired le
arhhhh tired until u so weak liao.. jialat..
should be really happened de, because i wasn't really asleep that time, i just lied down for 5 minutes, i was thinkning something before it happened
hahahaha
hmmmmm
scary lehhh
walau
last time i got such experience, that time maybe too stress liao, just sleep till halfway cannot move, but not like this time, got wind sound very loud beside my ear and got a guy whispering something to me T__T
~omg
吓死人
omg omg..
i dun dare to tell my gal T__T because she kena once before also, until now still dun dare to sleep alone T__T if i tell her i kena also, lagi jialat
u muz be toooo tired le
hahahaha yalor, i also think so
can quit and find other job anot.. hahaha...
yesterday i on leave leh, didn't work :D
but u sounds more busy and tired when u are on leave
run here run there
because one day need to do so many things ma :D
hahaha
keke
all for your gal wan -.-
ahahaha
come to think of it
YALOR
hahaha
kekekekekeke
haha car dao yin
i dunno what it meant leh
u better find a day go temple pray pray
but just follow u lor :D
heehee
pray? i normally dun pray de leh T__T
its juz wad u hav described lor.. suddenly cannot talk.. throat v.dry..
but yesterday night after the whole story finish, i lay down there just kept on amitabha-ing only :D
then got cold sweat anot..
hehehee
not that i know of :D
hehe.. u dun pray normally ar.. hmmm then wad do u do can let u 安心 abit..
hold a big stack of money as i sleep?
wahahahaha
buang
think with tat big stack of money in your arms.. the more u canl sleep lehh
hahaha
yalor
sekali too worried got ppl will come and steal them away ne
ya lo.. hehee then everyday re-count see got lose one anot
hmmm
then i think nothing can let me an xin liao
all along i slept very shallowly de leh
if got ppl look at me, i will wake up le
walamak
highly-alert :D
u are goldfish ar.. do u sleep with your eyes open!
why ppl look at u, u oso noe!
omg..
no leh, but the 气氛 not right then i will wake up
u will know when got ppl looking at u
LEOS all loved attention ma :D
hmmm
kekeke
doik
now think le still will feel eerie
brb
kkz...

Finally..

Finally.. after 2 months and 20 days' waiting, I got my PR approval letter liao, keke... Actually been wanting to become a PR for quite some time le, but last time need to drive in SG very frequently, so decided to postpone..

Now got PR, can apply for a wider variety de jobs... but not now lor, as the agent's condition to apply PR for me is that I must serve at least one more year under the same company... haha, which means I need to work for NCS until at least 2007 de June!

Apart from job, I can finally apply for my own phone line le.. currently my m1 phone is under my aunt de, felt very paiseh keke..

Alas, am standing at a crossroad liao, becoming a PR means I now have the choice to settle down in SG... quite a good choice right? can slowly save money and buy car and flat, then slowly form a family here..

but I always had this plan of eventually returning to malaysia (not necessarily JB, I fancied penang more actually :D), as it was where I was breed and raised.. hmmm, if I commit myself to the work in SG... like bro HS lor, no turning back le :D

if that's the case, then it will be 20 years (at least) till I can fulfil my wish to return to msia to live... haha.. actually not much diff also la, I live in JB only, can go home every week some more :D

But then.. sigh, need to start planning le, buy car? house? buy in jb or here? headache ~__~

^o^ nevertheless i am still happy and grateful for my application to have gone through.. yahoo!~~~~



Me and PY at her company's D&D... haha, my hair style damn orbit, nobody tell me T__T hair got too long and messy till I cannot tahan... went to had them trimmed off yesterday :D now looked better le :D

Oh ya, PY only managed to win an NTUC voucher ($30 de :D, better than nothing lor)




ps: thank you suki for helping me purchasing the webspace, i am still slow at setting up the website >_<

女人 （１）

声　光　色　影
混着又混着　天旋着地卷着天
喉际干燥　吐不出声　是因为天又黑了

什么叫着清醒　主副人格天差地远
具力拔河　谁才是主人

镜子　作的是反映
所以时而暧昧　时而饶富深意的笑
是混沌也是清晰地　第一次

酒精催促你不安　蠕动着　不知道这一步走不走得下
身体的呼唤是原始的　没经验过的
然而　也是危险的　欲罢不能的

房间的温度刚好　褪去着身的束缚　你知道　你输了
过程往往开始最艰难　一旦决定了　就无所谓犹豫不犹豫

男人的体味更甚的刺激你　对于未知
天真如你竟选择全盘接受　所以
当他的手试图逾越你身上最后一道防线时
没有拒绝

身体有团火越发炙烈　因此你不得不张开嘴
男人用强有力的双手将你抱起　占有你的双唇

你是多么的惹人怜惜　直长的头发飘散乱着　脑细胞已分不清对错是非
娇弱的躯体使力迎合着男人的呼唤
不够　还差一点

如此销魂　锁着你二十年来的桎梏　在这夜晚
全然失灵


＂今天晚上，我要成为你的女人．＂




阿牙木
不知道女人是不是真这样觉得？　:p

不吐还真是不快

Yesterday just had a project meeting on the progress of the whole system we are currently developing... very funny lor..

Unlike the SMU project we did last time, this time the project was drafted by one of my boss, and the whole project is damn complicated + tedious to do... Since last december we started the development, we had always been off the schedule (very behind some more)...

To the bosses (our team, only 5 persons doing coding, got 3 consultants just sit there everyday and talk talk talk only ~_~), the project seemed extremely simple...

"Just do this do that can liao, 1 day can finish right?"

"I don't care technically how difficult is this, from a user's point-of-view I want to see this done."


Started to feel frustrated, especially during yesterday's meeting. We had been rushing day and night for the whole business logic to be implemented into working codes.. and they just came in the meeting room late at 8.30 pm. Announced that a fundamental concept needs to be changed... this is not the first time le, the main reason we are behind our schedule is because of lack of communication. The TL will tell us wat to do and its based on his understanding, but then its not the boss' understanding...

If we say that the changes were invoked by the users, then boh bian... work sky work floor work till faint also must rush out... but its just because a misunderstanding we need to scrap the whole thing?

UAT is next Monday, that is why I'm still at office T__T oh shit... I almost scolded out at the bosses, most of us have been working 15 hours a day for 7 days a week, and the bosses occassioanlly stay on with us still 8pm (one even left on the dot everyday T__T|||).. whats the meaning of this? Totally no meaning right?

When I shouted out "its impossible to carry on, its definitely a no go", one of the bosses wanted us to share our opinion on the project. ALL OF US said it was a no go, definitely no go.

Then he tried to persuade us to hang on for a few more days. Heck! All he does is check mail and go home punctually everyday, of course easy to hang on la! Why in the first place ask us to share our opinion and say "if all of you say no go, i will reflect to boss and the user, we will see how then"??

In the end still insist "it can be a GO, it can be done" after uttering those nonsense???

In the end? wasted our 2 hours (no dinner!!!) and till 10.30 pm, not a conclusion has been made, he just told us "continue to rush at Friday, try to cut off everything by 5 pm"

where is he now? at home!!! we are still rushing, although my part finish le, but the rest of the team are like dead fish.. too tired to be frustreated, too braind dead to feel any grief---

Last time the SMU project, do till 3 am i also willing, because I had a good boss. He will accompany us until 3 am, although he doesn't know programming at all, he will try very hard to transfer the user's requirements to become technical designs, and then discuss with my TL AND US, so that we have the sense of involvement.


But for the current working flow, we are just programming machine. The person who is responsible to translate doesn't exist. Boss just assumed we know what to do (who briefed us?? not a single soul, just throw us a very very very 模糊 functional spec and expect us to come out with everything!) and we had no one to ask!

Arghhhhhhhhh, the only consolation point is that I have thus far accumulated 1 week's (7 days) time off already.. humphhh, worked OT for 2 months and only 1 week time off, already consider less le leh T__T


.........



Phew, now feeling better le, then thought of this pic sent by Steven, how true it is... hahaha...






Hai, go back to work le :D

How others think of me? ~_~

Below is my result...

Arena (known to self and others) caring, clever, friendly, helpful, knowledgable	Blind Spot (known only to others) able, bold, brave, confident, giving, happy, independent, intelligent, kind, logical, mature, modest, observant, organised, patient, reflective, sensible, sentimental, trustworthy, wise, witty
Façade (known only to self) responsive	Unknown (known to nobody) accepting, adaptable, calm, cheerful, complex, dependable, dignified, energetic, extroverted, idealistic, ingenious, introverted, loving, nervous, powerful, proud, quiet, relaxed, religious, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, shy, silly, spontaneous, sympathetic, tense, warm

Dominant Traits

57% of people think that vtian is confident
63% of people agree that vtian is helpful
57% of people agree that vtian is knowledgable

All Percentages

able (15%) accepting (0%) adaptable (0%) bold (10%) brave (5%) calm (0%) caring (15%) cheerful (0%) clever (47%) complex (0%) confident (57%) dependable (0%) dignified (0%) energetic (0%) extroverted (0%) friendly (42%) giving (10%) happy (5%) helpful (63%) idealistic (0%) independent (21%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (47%) introverted (0%) kind (5%) knowledgable (57%) logical (15%) loving (0%) mature (5%) modest (5%) nervous (0%) observant (15%) organised (10%) patient (21%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (5%) relaxed (0%) religious (0%) responsive (0%) searching (0%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (10%) sentimental (26%) shy (0%) silly (0%) spontaneous (0%) sympathetic (0%) tense (0%) trustworthy (26%) warm (0%) wise (5%) witty (10%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 16.2.2006, using data from 19 respondents.
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